Five Minute Friday-Still… a painful word

This should probably be a piece on be still and know, HE is God.

Honestly, as I see the word ‘still’, I feel a bit poor me. I am still watching a loved one battle addiction. I am still watching loved one face consequences for actions that I cannot comprehend. I am still exhausted, hurt, angry, disappointed, and deeply saddened. For a few minutes, I stand still in my sorrow for time lost and hearts hurting.

Four years.

That is how long this has gone on. The years before that were difficult in different ways. I have tried to seclude my feelings in some shell away from my heart and mind. It does not work. For where I am, where I think, where I function, my feelings are there, too. There is no hiding place away from myself. Wherever I hide, my feelings find me. I am struggling with this at the time.

That is exactly why I must stop. I must be still, or let go. I must submit my entire being to God. I must know and faithfully believe that He is God and my life is under his control. My God is greater than my pain. My God is my center. Through my hurt, I will lift my hands to Him.  In my life, God will be exalted. Through all we go through, He is our fortress. We cannot live in his fullness when we withhold parts of ourselves from Him.

“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”
 The Lord of hosts is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.”

Psalm 46:10-11

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http://katemotaung.com/five-minute-friday/

All are welcome and invited to take part in joining women around the world for Five Minute Friday! You will be given a prompt word, then simply take five minutes of your day to write a heartfelt, authentic message (no need to edit) using that word!

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8 Replies to “Five Minute Friday-Still… a painful word”

  1. “I must be still, or let go. I must submit my entire being to God. I must know and faithfully believe that He is God and my life is under his control. My God is greater than my pain…” So, so good. It’s hard when it seems like things don’t change, but God is still with us and He can still give us peace and joy even in the pain. {{HUGS}} May God bless and comfort you! I’m your neighbor at #FiveMinuteFriday.

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  2. I’m so sorry for your struggle, and I can certainly empathize, even though the cause of our pain is so very different. You said some very insightful things in such a short span of time, but I wanted to comment on this: “This should probably be a piece on be still and know, HE is God.” That first part is, for me and I think also for many who are hurting, a big stumbling block. We feel one way, but we feel we “should” show a different face to others. I hesitate because I’m concerned that I’ll be the odd man out in my take on things or because I’m sure people are tired of my struggles or because of what I perceive is expected of me as a Christian, and so many other “becauses”. Yes, He IS God. And because He is and because of what a “good Christian” is supposed to do, I sometimes don’t share honestly, and then at others I share too much (maybe like now? :)). But please, continue being honest and be you. Your transparency helps others, even when you may not know that and when you may not even care how others feel because your own hurt is so great. I hope all that makes sense. I’ve added you to my prayer list, and I hope you will reach out (fb pm or email or whatever) if you ever need to talk. your FMF #21 friend

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  3. Thank you! I am going through a divorce. I signed the papers this week, and this is also how I felt about the word still. I need to daily remind myself of Truth. I am your Five Minute Friday neighbor.

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